Where was I?

I seem to be in a weird place right now. A place where I can't seem to put more than a handful of words together before I am distracted and can't remember what I was talking about in the first place. I am pretty sure that in the last couple months I have started no fewer than a dozen or so blog posts in my head, but they never seem to make it beyond that initial, "Hey, I need to write this down when I get home." By the time I get home I can't even remember what I planned to make for dinner, much less what cute and witty thing my child said.

Maybe I should start bullet blogging like Megan at Millions of Miles does occasionally. I currently find that method really helpful, because in addition to not being able to complete a coherent sentence, I also seem to be unable to read more than three sentences on any website/blog before I start wondering if TAs have started coming in yet, or how much hotels in China are. And then I hit the search button and forget where I was.

Where was I?

Oh yeah, my head is all a-whirl. Blahblahblah.

I know someday I will look back on this blog and think it weird that this year I didn't post about Christmas or Chinese New Year or any of that stuff, but then I will probably remember that I can't concentrate on anything for more than 30 seconds, and hopefully I will have enough grace to forgive myself.

I wonder if it will get better once we have Jack. Will I suddenly be able to think clearly? I somehow find that unlikely, but I did write coherently when we brought Kate home. (Or maybe I didn't. Maybe no one understood me at all, and you all just came 'round for the cute kid pictures. Well, there's a hit to my ego.)

I hope that I will actually be able to reach inside myself and make sense of all of the thoughts and emotions that are whirling around in there. I hope that I will be able to sort out and put words to my joy, my fears, my heart, my blessings.

But if I don't, you all will still come and look at cute kids pics, right?